I am

I am not a survivor or victim, I am a warrior that has been fighting my entire life.
I am not a princess to rescue. I am a queen and I have my shit handled.
I am not required to do it all alone. I am surrounded by friends and family who will help.
I am not perfect. I am resilient enough to learn from my mistakes.
I am
I am afraid and letting that fear hold me back from doing what I know I need to
I am unsure
I am unsteady
I am just doing the best I can

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